If I had a $ for every time I’ve been called a muse… ‘inspirational’.
I admit. I’ve enjoyed your desire & my ego has been sufficiently stroked by what you’ve created from me. But I’m no longer content. I want to a-muse myself now.
I am After all The Fertile one.
So I’m going to impregnate the fuck out of myself.
I’ll start with jazz ( a woman likes to be woo’d after all). I’ll vibrate between all those polyrhythms and be titlated with every scratch off the record.
I’ll then dress myself in the kind of fabric that will rub up against my skin enough All eggs will release themselves in the belief something is coming.
I’ll run myself a hot bath so I can return to the womb Talk to it and say Let’s birth this baby
I’ll fire up my gut with cardamom, chilli and cinnamon so instinct will say
Yes Yes Oh yes
And no. will come with a resounding full stop.
Artists have never needed money to create. I don’t need your dollar coins.
I am the Fertile one after all.
“The pieces all fit together. Yet everything was falling apart.” – Nicholas Sparks. The Last Song.
A wise woman I know was recently able to articulate what I could not. When I asked her on Australia’s national ‘R U OK?’ day if indeed she was ok, she was able to discern between her core, her truth and the mess that was on the surface of her skin.
I am always amazed on ‘R U OK’ day that no matter what mud I may be trudging through, no matter how bewildered I might be over events taking place for myself or others, when I take the question and place it at my core… I am, indeed…ok.
I believe that ‘R U OK?’ day can provide a wonderful opportunity for us to go into that core, take stock of all the things we DO have, the simple things that truly matter; and that if indeed we have people in our lives who love us, a roof over our head and good health, we are more than ok.
In this realisation there’s also an opportunity to see that the wellness of your core can be used to filter the thick mud lining the surface. That it can heal, change our perspective, or simply help us remember that things can and will change.
Wonder. Meant …that asking R U OK? in a meaningful way, in a way that requires one to be honest with oneself and with others, to take stock of what’s important, what one HAS, …sometimes provides a most unexpected answer.
Yes. I am. Thank You.